Back on track
Hello Medium.
After almost 3 years, I’ve finally decided to prioritise online writing again.
I’ve missed this community. I’ve missed these creative hours going inward, digging into my soul. I’ve missed sharing my little discoveries with you, unafraid of judgement.
Two years.
I finally finished my second master degree.
At least in my mind, that was the only thing holding me back from committing to writing fully. Bousts of inspiration, doubts until the stressful end. A crash after completing it — existential crisis.
“And now that it’s done…what?”
Changed my job and got a promotion.
But no more fulfilled either. Unchallenged, uninspired, seeking to fill my day with mundane tasks. Superficial courtesy, nodding and smiling until your face muscles hurt.
Another heartbreak last month.
I wonder why I keep repeating the same pattern in dating without realizing it. Why I keep choosing the same type of emotionally unavailable men.
The universe must want me to keep hurting until I learn the lesson.
They say rejection is a redirection.
Perhaps that’s true. If there wasn’t this break-up I would not be back here. I would still be talking about building something of my own instead of actually doing it.
They also say you are exactly where you are meant to be. Trust the process.
4 months until the end of this year. Plenty of time to find my direction, focus and rebuild.
Hello Medium, again.
